ugh, my bio is really lame. am i going to change it? nope.

am very tired. sorry for lack of proper grammer. also sorry for lack of content.


Dec. 12th, 2008 11:22 am
Dear uterus,


Yours sincerely

i keep having dreams in which people break into my house and watch me sleep and whisper things in my ear. i have also taken to peeking around corners at night in case people have actually broken in. this is not cool.

ETA: OH MY GOD. So, wow, I just freaked out royally. About 10 minutes after I wrote this, I was walking past the study (my sister was in there and I thought she was still asleep) and "someone" (my sister, duh) jumped out and smacked me. And I promptly screamed and feel down and almost passed out becasue I was hyperventilating. And I cried hysterically. While on the phone with my mother. I feel all shaky and tired and also pretty foolish. THERE IS NO ONE IN THE HOUSE WHO IS NOT MEANT TO BE HERE. CALM THE FUCK DOWN. Okay.

It also makes me all the more eager to see Milk.

Yeah, this is really last minute. *shrugs*

Anyway, I'd like to send you a Christmas card! Yes, YOU! Give me your address! I will send you a card, possibly one with oddly frightening angels on it!

All comments will be screened, in case anyone is scared of weird stalker-type folks. (Heck, I know I am.)


*iz tired*

Dec. 3rd, 2008 09:29 pm
It has been a long day, flist. For reals.

I actually woke up at a normal time this morning (about 8am) and was all set to do prductive things (eg. wash my hair, which takes forever because it's a bitch to curl in) and clean my room etc. Then I decided to check my flist "really quickly. really really quickly". Then it was 11 o'clock. STOP BEING SO ENDLESSLY FASCINATING, ALL OF YOU. Then I had to scramble to get ready in time to go to lunch with two old friends from high school (which, granted was only two years ago, but feels a whole lot longer) and just barely managed to dry my hair in time (Joe Trohman fro, anyone?) (wow, I need to stop with the parentheses.) Lunch was sooooo good, I had quesedilas with extra bacon (my first taste of bacon in almost a year and it was wonderful )and a berry shake and great conversation.

Then, after my appointment with my psych, which I really want to make a seperate post about, I saw HSM3 with my sister. My lack of shame, let me show you it. That movie has become one of my happly places. There's singing and dancing and little boys in junkyards and pretty dresses and jazz squares. What's not to love? Also, Zac Efron needs to take of his shirt more. Maybe that would distract me from his terrible acting. Just sayin'.

Now, i have a burger (chicken because the useless restaurant "don't serve veg burgers, sorry") and wonderful fic to read and I am HAPPY. If you guys haven't read Staring Through The Demons by [ profile] bexless  yet, I suggest you get on it. It's amazing!

My Chemical Romance. I ... have nothing to say except that I love these boys so much it hurts and I want to swim in fic about their ridiculous faces. That is all.

ETA: So, my hair's kind of wet from running around in the rain, so I've tied it up off my neck with a bandanna. it gets really hot otherwise. Of course, my sister has to kill my buzz (it was a good idea! I dry my hair, I stay cool, everybody wins!) by saying "dude, what's with the bandanna? You look like you're trying to be, I don't know, gay and a gansta at the same time."]

THANK YOU. THANK YOU SO MUCH. As if that's even a bad idea. Maybe I was going for that look. YOU DON'T KNOW.

Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results.

I could talk to you for days
I traded fame for love without a second thought
Sucker, love is heaven sent
I comb the crowd and pick you out

It's been the longest winter without you
I can see it in your eyes, you're scared
You're showing in your face
Time here all but means nothing

From the moment the lights went off
Sat outside my front window
Mr. Maker, he's gutting me
I treat this like my thesis

Your heart's breaking in rain
There's always cracks
There's traffic in the say
Back to the street where we began

You can keep your black tongue
Can't you see that it's just raining?

Well. That made absolutely no sense. This is why I shouldn't do memes.

Wow, it took, like, three minutes. What the hell have I been waiting for? *headdesk*

For anyone who wants some pretty pretty icons (namely my sister), here's some of the links. And thanks to [ profile] zany_maiden for the little push in this direction!

[profile] iconzicons
[community profile] collapsingnight
[profile] dizzyleaves
[personal profile] gaffe
[profile] kookicon


Oct. 31st, 2008 09:19 pm

Oh, god, I want to make a proper post, I just can't work up the energy to do so right now. It's not like very much happened today.

- Went secondhand book hunting with my bff Sarah, managed to find some decent stuff.

- I then scared said friend with my unhealthy obsession with Panic at the Disco and all things Decaydance. I can't help it if today happened to be the day I was wearing some band merch. And carrying a FOB messenger bag. And a Panic notebook. IT WAS A COINCIDENCE, I AM NOT A STALKER. So there, Sarah.

- There are bugs everywhere. Stupid rainy season combined with extreme heat. They seem to multiply everytime I turn my back. Eww.

- I helped my mom roast about 14kgs of chicken pieces. There's a family do tomorrow, so we were in charge of some of the eats (clearly I have a HUGE family, even before you factor in the random people who just show up for food. Which I hate. But this is not that post, the one about people taking you for a ride. I'll save that delicious morsel for another day). I never want to see a piece of chicken again, no matter how delicious and spicy it is. Mmmmm. Okay, maybe just one more tiny piece.

- I'm alone at home right now, which I kind of hate; I get freaked out really easily. Also, it's Halloween. Not that, you know, we actually celebrate it. But still, kind of freaked right now.

Sorry my life is so boring y'all.


So, today wasn't bad. This was the first therapy session that wasn't incredibly painful, and I managed to look my therapist in the eyes the whole time (usually I talk to the floor and my hands) so I consider that a big win.

I had Family Fun Time! It didn't suck! My adorable cousin is turning 8 on Saturday, and she begged me to take her to see HSM 3.... clearly I HAVE to take her. What kind of sicko would see it three times in a week deny a child such as imple pleasure? Ahem.

Also, my sister sent me books! She's my favorite (dude, if you're reading this: SEND MORE. AM BORED.) and I'm glad we chatted today. Even though I can barely get a word in edgewise half the time. Sigh. She's still awesome though. (SERIOUSLY NEED MOAR BOOKS)

What else? I ate an apple today. This might sound like an everyday occurence, but this one was truly monstrous. It was the size of an infants head. I kid you not. And I ate every sweet delicious morsel of the apple. Om nom.

What else? Good lord, nothing happened today. i cleaned some windows. I ate a truly monstrous... oh wait, said that already. My life is pretty boring of late, tbh, *shrugs*
Today is not shaping up to be the best day. No particular reason, just. I feel very... meh. Which is not good, because it often leads to bad things. So, how will I cheer myself up?

Hey, why don't I go help my aunt plan her wedding and listen to people gossiping about my "pregnancy"? Yes, that sounds like a plan.
Seriously, NOTHING happened today. I went out to luch with my brother and my dad (FREE FOOD), and had some delicious Italian sounding thing. It had tuna and peas and garlic and heavy cream and rosemary and I wanted to die it was so good.

I also had numerous x-rays of my hand taken. This was rather unpleasant, as I had to bend over the x-ray table in a rather suggestive position for about half an hour while turning my hands over and over. Also, the x-ray technician had a really strong accent, which made communication pretty hard. She kept asking me to... I don't know what, and then I'd delicately furrow my brow at her and she'd come out of her safe-box and readjust me. It sounds hotter than it was.

Then I read Harry Potter fic. I don't care if Malfoy is a total prat in the books, Harry/Draco is my OTP for sure. Harry/Hermione always seemed kind of incestuous to me.

Now, I'm listening to Jack's Mannequin and LOVING ANDREW! He's so talented! And awesome! And his voice makes me go "nnnnngh"/cry/dance around/all of the above.

ETA: Why do all my "happy" icons look identical.



Oct. 27th, 2008 09:57 pm

Sooooo. random thoughts:

If Obama doesn't win, I'll have to cut Sarah Palin a bitch.

I want chocolate, but nooooo. Nutritionist says I can't have any. *is sad*

I'm totally going to see High School Musical again and I don't care.

I have no idea what my Nano story is going to be about. I have about 4 different ideas, and I kind of need to get serious and pick on dammit.

I want Jack's Mannequin! Stupid lame Southern Hemisphere.

That is all. Hope everyone on my flist is doing fantastically. i figure good wishes are the least I owe you guys after all the cheering up you do for me!
So. Um. I might have seen High School Musical this weekend?


It was so wonderfully bad. Guys, seriously, you have to see it, you'll laugh til you cry, and then laugh some more. There's junkyard dancing! Dancing on rooftops! Gabriella doesn't make me want to punch her in the face with her adorableness! Troy's emo dance on the ceiling! Random singing in the middle of a basketball game! Jamie form SYTYCD 3! Ryan wears GALOSHES!

Ok, done flailing.

Also, I watched this Panic interview. I think they were in... Sweden? I don't know.

I just found it endlessly entaertaining. Brendon looks pretty uninterested, and I felt kinda bad for the interviewer. She was really trying hard to get something out of him. Alos, Jon's allergic to candy! His life, so hard! Honestly, I don't hink I could love this band any more than I already do.

From the lovely [ profile] ignipes . Comment if you'd like 5 questions of your own!

1. Do you prefer coffee or tea or something else?

 Hmmm. I'm a whore for herbal teas, the more obscure and weird sounding, the better. Right now, I've got this liqorice root and celery tea. It sounds... iffy, but tastes divine!

2. Where do want to be in ten years?

Ten years from now, I want to be working abroad. Specfiaclly in Chicago. I have no idea why Chicago holds so much appeal for me (and I HATE cold weather. The desert spoiled me) but there you go. Or Japan. Japan just fascinates me because it's so different from everywhere I've ever been.

3. What's your favorite dessert?

It used to be anything chocolate related, until my horrible nutritionist was all "o hai, ur allergic" So no more. DDD: But, I'm huge fun of malva pudding or roly poly pudding. Basically, if you can pour custard over it, I'm sold.

4. How did you get into fandom?

My all-knowing sister got into it after she started listening to MCR (on MY suggestion. My wisdom knows no bounds) and she told me about it. I was all, RPS: DO NOT WANT. Then I read the Holly Golightly Club around November last year. And the rest, as they say, is history. I couldn't have asked for a better introduction to bandom.

I was into lotr fic for a while a couple of years ago, but I'd let my sister slog through all the... not so good stuff, and just read the gems.

5. What are you favorite kinds of stories to read?

I love love LOVE angst. The more angst, the better. Angst and UST and boykissing. And I like happy endings, or at least, I don't like devastatingly sad endings. Also: LOOOOOOOOONFIC. I love those long stories, I love settling in for an afternoon and just immersing myself in the world someone else has created. This is my very subtle way of telling [ profile] ignipes  that "OMG ilu! slavefic!" Definitely in the top ten stories I've read all year. I don't know if I mentioned that in the comments to the actual story, but hey, I'll just shove it in here.


um, sorry?

Oct. 22nd, 2008 12:05 pm

I just realised that the last three posts I've made are all about therapy and my INNER PAIN. And while I'm all for expressing my feelings, I'm not  really in favour of clogging of your flists with sadness.

So, here's a list of things that are making me happy right now:
  • spinach omlettes. I don't know whay people hate spinach, it's quite possibly the best green thing ever. probably not as fun to smoke though. Not that, you know, I do. Anyway.
  • Fall Out Boy. I will never get tired of seeing Joe pull off his face and reveal.... a Gabe! I CAN HAZ A GABE? If only. Also, Patrick's innocent!nun!face! Patricks voice! Just Patrick!
  • I made a new friend! [ profile] ashlein and I were comment ficcing. There was angst and Ryan staring at Brendon's ass during church. I approve.
  • My sister's coming home soon. Well, in a couple of weeks. And even though she's a remote control dictator, I still love her.

"Hey, why don't you do a meme?"
"But everyone's already done this one!"
"Hmmm. You make a good point there."

Welcome to my brain, Population 2 (apparently) Does anyone else have weird conversations with THEMSELVES?

Here, have a birthday meme, stolen from the infinitely cheery [ profile] mysteriouswolf1 

* Pick your birth month.
* Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
* Bold (or italicize) the five-ten that best apply to you.
* Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

Hee, I giggled when I read sexy! Not gonna cross it out though. Why yes, I don't have any shame! Thanks for noticing!

Looking for the rest? Under the cut! )
Children of the Damned. You know, the one with Kirstie Alley back when she was sassy and awesome? And not just on a lot of shows that all seem the same? (Or maybe it's just one show, which is multidimensional in its suckiness.)

There's nothing like a slew of creepy blond alien children to ensure a good night's sleep.

Ooooh, you know what would be awesome (well, to any bandom people, at least)? A Children of the Damned AU. Preferably starring Panic. Ryan could be Kirstie Alley. He's sassy! And Brendon could be some science-y dude, and Spencer and Jon would be cops and. Well, I don't know. Any suggestions?

oh noes!

Oct. 14th, 2008 10:31 am
Guys. The world has officially ended.

I am allergic to chocolate. CHOCOLATE. Food of the gods, the ultimate comfort food. My fav thing EVER. Also on the list:

red meat
black pepper


That is all.



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